I’m almost done. I’ve never posted on here but I’ve came to stage where I’m seriously almost done and drinking isn’t working anymor

I wish to **** there was someone to speak to. Ex hates family family hates ex all of them stupid as anything three weeks ive not seen my children spoke to them tonight on FaceTime for an hour and then got told it was being recorded (who does that). When my daughter asked if I have a new mum for her and babies as that’s what her mum told her (I live alone🤣) my other daughter shouting screaming daddy and my boy just crying saying come back. Ex still messaging saying she loves me but who does stuff like that? Been so strong to hold out so far but now I’m giving up. **** it, I need to see my children.