Depression and anxiety

[HUTCHYHIBBY]

I'm on a right downer just now, got concerns about every one of my immediate family for differing reasons, my head is scrambled and my emotions are just about managing to cope. I'm under the impression nobody has the same concerns for happy go lucky me which doesn't help much.

I feel my role in the family is very similar to the one that Del boy describes in Only Fools and Horses in the episode when grandad dies and he has to defend his upbeat mood at the wake in the flat to Rodney. It's not that easy.